“It Was Always You”

Five years old….playing softball for the first time, making my first “best” friend – and it’s you.

1st grade….fighting with another classmate over whose boyfriend Brant is, the teacher catches us hitting each other, and one person insists to the teacher that I didn’t start it…that person is you.

4th grade…I’m out sick and a classmate doesn’t want you to bring my makeup work home to me because she wants me to get behind. I get a phone call from someone crying and saying she should have never agreed to go along with that because she’s my friend and isn’t going to keep it from me…the person on the phone is you.

7th grade…I play a little aggressively in handball and make a much bigger, much stronger 8th grader mad at me. She wants to fight me after school. Not one to fight but also not one to be bullied, I tell her I’ll meet her. One person comes to my locker after school to accompany me to the “fight”…again, you (luckily, the fight didn’t happen).

11th grade…friends get upset over my group getting a higher grade on a project than they got. I respond by crying. One person whips around in her desk and jumps to my defense…it’s you.

In college…my brother, Dan, calls and ask me for my friend’s number. It’s yours.

A couple years later….my brother, Dan, gets married and I get another sister-in-law…and it’s you.

2002…I get my first niece. Her mom is you.

2005…my baby is going through chemo and his counts are bottomed out. We’re at the hospital while we wait for them to come back up. Someone shows up with a care basket and a mix CD of uplifting songs…of course, it’s you.

January 2018…I’m going through a tough time, and I get a message…”You know…you were my friend way before I was your sister-in-law. And I’m so glad I’m your family now. But I will always be your friend first. I want you to know something…I will always be here for you. And I love you. You are strong. And smart. And I love you to the moon.” The message was from you.

February 27, 2018…Mom calls and tells me I need to get to your house immediately. Something has happened…to you.

It’s been two years today since that phone call. And life hasn’t been the same without you. I never really knew life without you…without your friendship, without your protection, without your support.

There’s a hole…and that hole is you. I’ll always ache over losing you, but I am so very grateful to have had a friend, a sister that mattered so much and left a hole so deep. I hope everyone is that lucky.

One thought on ““It Was Always You”

  1. This story is so touching to my heart I have heard it before but every time I hear it I just cry and pray that one day I will find a friend that is just half that!!! I have no friends close by just so called friends and I don’t know if something was badly wrong with me that anyone of them would even be there. With everything I’m going thru now no one is there for me to really to talk to but my husband and my daughters. But it is harder to talk to them because they don’t want to really want to hear how I really feel they want to hear the stronger part of me. But I can’t be that right now. So you was one of the lucky ones and so was she and god bless you!!!❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻

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